I am in that strange place in my Aliyah process. I was getting a little nervous about what comes next. I needed some help to sort things out. I have done the initial Ulpan and I can function in society on a rudimentary level. I am hoping for more formal education in the spring so I can advance in my Hebrew literacy. I am currently a very happy seminary girl, at least 3 days a week.
I have started to think about getting a job- just something to help pay the bills. What kind of a job? I have always been successful with the ones that you actually have to do something. I need to be active and engaged.In Israel that probably needs more Hebrew than I feel confident with. Please correct me if I am wrong. Really, please….
I have been thinking about working from home, but I really love being with people. I would sell a product if I was really passionate about it. My doula work is soul satisfying but it is a lot of waiting- so I do have time to do other things. My kallah class training won’t be until Fall and I am working on my Childbirth Education certification. All good in the pipeline, but not going to be rolling in the shekels.
Today I had a meeting with Jenny Sassoon. She offered her time through a program Shelly Brinn offered at the Iriya (City Hall) in Maaleh Adumim aimed at soon to be employed new Olim. Jenny is a trained social worker and a certified Coach. Last Rosh Hodesh Jenny did a short workshop on self-esteem. I was so impressed with her group work skills and her sensitivity; I knew I had to jump at the chance to pick her brain about my existential crisis issues. There I said it” I have issues”….
Jenny walked me through her “inside/outside” approach to getting a handle on the issues many women face when starting a business or a new career. We talked about getting paid for what you used to give away- making the leap to being a professional. She told me that all of the thank you notes and recommendations I have carefully collected shouldn’t affect how I feel about myself. I have to take pride in what I do and offer it in the marketplace with no caveats. Funny, Chassiduit teaches that also. Hmmm…
She told me how to hold my body to feel more confident. She gave me daily homework in front of the mirror aimed at strengthening and owning my qualities that make me who I am. She told me to be proud and upright about who I am. It was on the surface a business problem I handed her- and she handed me back soul work.
I think I like Jenny’s approach to business and life- know who you are. She says the answers are in me! If is one thing that I have learned from Chassiduit studies this year is that she is right – we know what we have to do to be aligned with our values. I got a little scared and shaky about what is coming next. I really needed Jenny to walk me through the fear and lack of self-confidence. I have a lot of emmunah about parnassah, but every so often it slips. Jenny was there to catch me.
If you need Jenny’s help she is available on Facebook and she can Skype if you live far from Jerusalem. Just don’t go it alone- it takes a guide and a coach to kick your compass into gear. Look for her at http://www.BuildBetterRelationships.com and tell her I sent you.
- I keep finding new dreams….. (asettlersdream.wordpress.com)